I want to stop disappearing.

I know I've said this a thousand and eleven times at least, but I think I'll make it this time ...

I really really, genuinely want to write on here EVERY SINGLE DAY. I've done it before; I have journals that I wrote in every single day for two and a half years and I absolutely love looking back on them. The reason I switched to BlogSpot was because whenever I wrote on paper, I would have to go on my computer and print off and cut out pictures and then I would actually glue them in there next to the stuff I wrote. It was pretty awesome, and it looks really good, but it was a LOT of WORK. So I figured I would put it ALL on the computer instead. I'm not sure why, but since I started doing that, it just got harder to post every day. Or, more recently, at all. But I've made two New Years' Resolutions this year, which is weird, because I NEVER make New Years' Resolutions because they are bull spit ... but anyway, TWO for this year because I thought it would be a good idea and it is definitely going to make my life better ... in theory ...

NUMBER ONE: I'm going to try and post once a week at least, on Sundays, because the shop is closed on Sundays so I'm basically guarunteed a little bit of free time, so NO excuse.

NUMBER TWO: One of the reasons it's been hard to update is the fact that I can be so cynical and I let things get me down way too much in 2011. And now it's 2012, and if this is going to be my last year on earth, I want it to be the best year of my whole life, gosh darnit! So no more worrying what people think of me, what they say about me, if they don't like me, they don't matter. All I can do about it is ignore and be the best person I can. Easier said than done, so unfortunately lately I have to make a VERY concious effort ... my hope is that it will get easier as the year goes on.

And lastly, I would love to post an updated photo but right now my hair is very very short and I'm having a hard time convincing myself that I'm the least bit photogenic. The story behind this is I had a little too much fun with my head and found my hair fried, so about three weeks ago I cut about half of it off and coloured it black so I could start from scratch and let it grow for a few years. I still have some colour in there of course! But not enough ... I'm adding some more on Tuesday but I'm going to have to be more careful this time and not overdo it!